You are never alone. Allow yourself to reach out in moments of need. That’s self love. Just because people weren’t there for you in the past doesn’t mean good people won’t be there for you now. Wishing you a day full of feeling so loved you are overflowing 💗#loveyoubetrue #spiritofkindness #servantofpeace #neveralone #alwayswithme #selflove
“Do not feel lonely. The entire universe is inside of you”
Actually, it’s okay to feel the loneliness. Feel it. Feel it hard. Feel it fully. And as you do, it will continue to dissolve and transmute a little more and a little more… and you will come to remember that You are divine manifest, expressing through a physical body as a vessel of That.
You are not just destined for great things… you already ARE great things. Your job here is to allow the layers of emotion to engulf you so that you may take flight once again and shine your Light as the beacon you are.
You are worthy, you are perfect, you are whole, and I love you.
I had the most amazing experience this morning! I was saying goodbye to a friend and letting her out of my apartment complex. Here is a picture of the cabinet in our stairwell. As you can see, this cabinet contains mostly junk. Boxes, empty supplement containers, and yes, those are empty (Surf) laundry detergent boxes. I’m not sure why my landlord stores this stuff here but many things (that we Westerners take for granted) come in quite handy in a third world country. You’d be surprised at how many ways you can use an empty laundry box!
Now, I have walked past this cabinet hundreds of times, but this morning I got the intuition that I was supposed to retrieve something in it (for what, I had no idea). So I walked to it, opened the cabinet and peaked inside – still not sure what I was there for. I felt guided to the second shelf down, on the left. A book. See it?
I knew, immediately upon seeing it, that the book was ‘it’ (why I was being guided to the cabinet). Curious about the title and topic, I reached into the cabinet, but as soon as I felt the textured surface, I realized that this was no ordinary book.
As I opened the book to a random page, I saw hand-writing. This was someone’s journal. My eyes fell to someone else’s secrets. Secrets about meeting a man. Immediately I knew that these words were not written for the eyes of others to see. It felt so private and, quite frankly, reading it felt like a violation. I thought to myself what a shame it is that this journal is sitting here on this shelf, available to the eyes of the public, because who ever it belongs to probably wouldn’t want others reading their private writings.
So I closed the book and began to wonder why I was guided to it and what am I to do with it?! It felt wrong to place it back on the shelf for world access. Then, I felt what I can only describe as an impression… and suddenly, I knew whose journal it was. Odd. Usually, I get what I call ‘downloads’ from my divine or the Universe. This was different. It was more like an impression and it wasn’t coming from ‘out there’. It was coming from the object itself.
What’s interesting is that I recently read about this phenomena! It’s as if reading about it opened me to recognize the experience for what it is; psychometry (also known as psychoscopy or token-object reading). Psychometry is known as a form of extra-sensory perception characterized by the ability to make relevant associations from an object of unknown history by making physical contact with that object.
So here I was, standing here with this sacred journal in my hands. I didn’t have any solid confirmation (in this realm at least) of whose journal this was, but I took my chances and contacted the owner anyway. I snapped a picture of the journal and sent it to her, asking if she was missing her journal:
After further conversation, she revealed that she didn’t even know it was missing. So that explains (partly) why I was guided to the cabinet; to act as a channel to return her book. Her divine is watching over her. There’s something in that book she is meant to know or see or remember and I guess the divine knew I would deliver it safely, while maintaining it’s sacredness (by not reading it).
At the same time, the divine is also confirming to me (again) that I am on the right path, in terms of psychic development and opening myself as a channel and intuitive to serve humanity. What a blessing. Thank you, God.
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Today I’m grateful for the cool breeze and sunshine as I laid out on the terrace; oh, and bananas. Yes. Bananas.
As I sat down to eat my fruit salad I realized is forgotten to put a banana in it. I went back to get a banana, thank God, because while I was In the kitchen I realized I had left the gas stove running.
Today, I am grateful for the nurse at the Ayurvedic hospital I’m in. She’s such a doll. Day before yesterday, as she was braiding my hair and prepping me for treatment, she said, “ma’am?”
“Yes?”, I asked
Then, in this playful, giddy voice, she said, “I love you!”
All I could do was burst out laughing! I wasn’t quite sure I heard her right.
“You love me?”, I asked?
“Yes”, she said, looking up with the nature of a three year old.
“Aw! I love you too!”
In that moment, I was reminded of how easily we can influence someone’s life with our words, our thoughts, our actions. Her simple act of kindness brought me so much internal joy that I literally burst into laughter. Thing is, this girl really doesn’t know me… we have small conversations of broken English each day, so how could she possibly have come to love me? What if the divine was expressing through her, toward the divine that expresses through me.
So then I wondered to myself, what if everyone in the world could be like this? What if the whole world could just express their feelings without reservation or fear of someone’s reaction? How many times have you walked past someone and wanted to say, “I like your dress!” or, “You’re beautiful”, but never did, for fear of a negative reaction or fear of someone thinking you are weird? How many explosions of joy could you have instigated, had you the courage to allow the divine to express through you in that moment?
So today, I am grateful for my nurse, my beautiful soul sister at this hospital, and also for the lessons in love she has given me. In honor of that, today I am going to make it a point to allow the divine to express through me by giving at least one person a compliment.
How about you? What are you grateful for today? Here’s the trick.. you can’t list anything you’ve already used in yesterday’s post!
Today I went white water rafting on Kelani River (pronounced KELL-uh-nee) in Sri Lanka. Here are some things I learned:
1. White water rafting is a freaking BLAST!!
2. It’s pointless to wear makeup if going white water rafting lol.
3. Even when you think you’re a badass, Mother Nature will always have one up on you, and then some!
4. Wear tennis shoe style shoes, not flip-flops – unless you want to lose your shoes. Or, do like I did and just go barefoot lol.
5. Never start a splash fight of the oars when you are one girl in a boat with three guys – especially when you’re in the middle of the boat and surrounded!
6. Laughter truly IS the best medicine.
7. Bring a change of clothes when going white water rafting. And if you don’t, then at least wear clothes that dry fast (thank you prAna)!
8. I love 80s music! They play a lot of it here in Sri Lanka.
9. White water life vesting is almost as fun as white water rafting lol (we jumped out of the boat and went through one of the rapids with only our life vests and safety hats on)!
10. As we continued on our trail, the side banks of the river revealed that people actually use this river to bathe and wash their clothes in. I realized that we are both blessed in our own way. How beautiful a life to live in this scenery… and I’m learning that a more simple life is just so much better. Yet how blessed am I that I have a washing machine at my apartment in India to wash my clothes for me, and clean water to bathe in.
11. Sri Lankan buffalo look like kind of like American bulls lol.
12. I am blessed beyond measure and my heart is so full of love for God and life and people and all living things that I easily overflow with tears of gratitude on a regular basis. Wait. I didn’t learn that just today, but then again, I did. A part of me dies every day to be reborn to the new me and the new life God has given me… and I often shed tears of immeasurable gratitude for every experience… Even for toilets that flush all over the bathroom floor and leaving my debit card in the ATM… I’m grateful for them all.
For having such a toilet allows me the opportunity to show grace to others the same way losing my debit card has shown me how gracious others are to me.
Thank you, God.
Awake and ready for the day!
On the way to white water rafting:
Video of the lake after we finished:
Who was in our raft? From left to right: the Guide, Nipun, Luc, and me 🙂
My host’s lovely and helpful son, Luc (right) and his beautiful friend, Nipun (left). They really made this trip fun and we laughed so much! Thank you, Luc and Nipun!! <3
Here are some pics of the lake I was able to capture after our trip. Sure wish I could’ve captured the beauty while on the lake but my phone would’ve been ruined lol:
Losing your job? Chronic illness? Life not going how you want it to go? Surrender to the divine and open yourself up to the jewels of life!! Getting sick and losing my job were two of the BEST things that ever happened to me!! Had I not gotten sick I’d still be slaving away behind a desk and computer 8, 12, or 18 hours a day. For as long as I fought being sick, I stayed sick. I was so pissed! I wanted to be better & be independent again, dang it!!
That which we resist, persists. Finally, I stopped resisting and realized, God must have me in this position for a reason or two. I stopped fighting it and I surrendered my life to the Divine. “okay God”, I said, “you’ve got me where you want me. Show me why I’m in this mess. What am I not seeing? What do I need to learn? What are you trying to teach me? What do I need to see, to get better?!”
Partly, I learned, that I was brought to a point if surrender so that I could turn back to God. I had nowhere else TO turn. I was so sick, I literally felt like I was dying a slow, torturous death. As soon as I quit fighting it and accepted my situation, things took a drastic turn.
It started to dawn on me (the reasons I was so sick & the things I needed to learn). And then? Slowly, day by day, I started to get better.
Today, I am writing to you from my iPhone on a bus to Dambulla, Sri Lanka to see ancient cities. I’ve been in this country for 3 nights and have spent less than $50. With God, ANYTHING is possible!!! ANYTHING!!!
I used to be a slave to a large corporation. Now I am traveling the world and every day is a magical adventure. I will never work a 9-5 desk job again. Today, I am SO in love! I am in love with myself. I am in love with my divine. I am in love with life!! In love with my new career!! I’ve been asked to teach in two different countries already!
God shows me miracles every single day. I am blessed beyond measure. Yes. I lost my job of nearly 14 years. Yes, I lost my home. It was a hard hit to the ego losing everything I’d spent the past 13 years working for! But you know what?! I was never meant to be a computer programmer.
I only chose that profession because of the money, but my spirit was dead doing that work. I am a people person. I came here in this life to help others. Today I work for God. It’s the best job with the BEST benefits!!! Benefits like traveling the world and meeting the most amazing and interesting people ever!
Benefits like being freely offered a place to stay from random people who are also working for God and living in their Heart Space. It really is true. The more you give, the more you receive.
So… please. Do not be afraid. The Bible says that where ever you go, God goes before you. Do not be afraid of tomorrow. God is already there. What may seem like the worst disaster today may just be the biggest blessing of your entire LIFE!! Give God a chance. If you’re feeling lost, or scared, no matter what your troubles are there is one thing that is certain: God’s got your back. All you gotta do is stop fighting God’s plan for you and surrender to it.
Communicate with your divine… and if things aren’t going YOUR way, then get OUT of the way and ask your divine to show you HIS (or HER or IT’s) way… and open yourself up to all the joy and wonder that is right there, waiting for you to claim!
I am writing a series of books and I need a diverse set of volunteers to read my rough drafts, who have the skills to provide feedback from the following viewpoints:
—You are open-minded and have had a “spiritual awakening” (also known as ascension) or have experiences that you do not understand, and can provide input or ask question for clarification in this respect.
—You do not know what a ‘spiritual awakening is’, but you are interested in my story and what I did to get better, and can provide feedback/ask questions from this viewpoint.
Must have the ability to:
* – provide constructive criticism
* – ask question for clarification or offer foresight of questions a future reader may have.
* – Be boldly honest and respectfully say things you think I may not like or that may hurt my feelings.
* – correct grammatical errors
Not everyone will be picked. If you are interested, please message me. Thank you and blessed day to you! <3
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7 Oz Sweetener (Maple Syrup, Honey, etc)
Optional: Ice Cubes
2 Tbsp Maple Syrup or Honey
Juice of one fresh lemon
6-8 oz water
Optional: Ice Cubes
Juice the lemon into a glass
Add Sweetener and Water, then stir
Optional: Add Ice
Lemons are incredibly healing. They are alkalizing, and have strong strong antibacterial, antiviral, and immune-boosting powers. They also have anti-oxidant powers and contain large amounts of vitamin C (nearly half the daily recommended dosage). Lemons also assist in healing and cleansing the liver and, did you know that lemons lower blood sugar? It’s true!
Back when I had metabolic syndrome, when my blood sugars would go higher than I wanted, I would drink fresh squeezed lemon juice in water to bring it back under control. I know it works because I tested my blood sugar levels before and after. Neat stuff! Hippocrates said, “Let thy food be thy medicine and they medicine be thy food”… there is something to that statement. After all, Hippocrates was was a pretty smart dude.
“Vitamin C travels through the body neutralizing any free radicals with which it comes into contact in the aqueous environments in the body both inside and outside cells. Free radicals can interact with the healthy cells of the body, damaging them and their membranes, and also cause a lot of inflammation, or painful swelling, in the body. This is one of the reasons that vitamin C has been shown to be helpful for reducing some of the symptoms of osteoarthritis and rheumatoid arthritis.
Since free radicals can damage blood vessels and can change cholesterol to make it more likely to build up in artery walls, vitamin C can be helpful for preventing the development and progression of atherosclerosis and diabetic heart disease.
Vitamin C is also vital to the function of a strong immune system. The immune system’s main goal is to protect you from illness, so a little extra vitamin C may be useful in conditions like colds, flus, and recurrent ear infections.
Owing to the multitude of vitamin C’s health benefits, it is not surprising that research has shown that consumption of vegetables and fruits high in this nutrient is associated with a reduced risk of death from all causes including heart disease, stroke and cancer.”
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KICK-START YOUR DIGESTIVE PROCESS FOR THE DAY
For the next three weeks, and on an empty stomach, try drinking freshly squeezed lemon juice in a warm (not hot) glass of water with a little bit of honey first thing in the morning to kickstart the digestion process for the day. and see what it does for your digestion. Let me know how it works for you! Read more here about the benefits of drinking warm water. Everyone is different, so test out quantities for yourself. For me personally, I drink about a quart of fluid in the morning, minimum. Most days I drink more than that. It seems the more fluid I take in the morning, the better my digestion.
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Previously, I shared my experience with you about the phenomenon of the divine holding the coin to the wall… and I’m sure this was really hard for most of you to believe, having not experienced it yourself. I was actually able to get some videos of this phenomenon at a different site; the Nandi bull in Mysore.
I’m sure it may still be hard for some to believe. I showed one of these videos to a friend here in Mysore, and even seeing a video, she refused to believe there wasn’t some trick behind it. She was just certain that there was tar on the bull, or that it was magnetized. It’s unfortunate that her mind wouldn’t let her believe… because it’s such a beautiful, sacred experience.
If you ever get the chance to come to India, bring coins with you.. because this is one experience you must have before you leave; especially if you lack in faith.
Here’s a video of me, channeling my divine to accept my offering. It’s one of the most amazing experiences of my life. Notice, in the second video, you can see the coin sliding beneath my finger-tips, so it’s evident that the bull is not magnetized or tarred:
One person said they felt electricity come through their arm. I don’t remember what the other said. Personally, I felt heat come through my arm. Thank you to my beautiful friends for being a testimony to the divine for the world to see. Thank you to Spirit for allowing the recording and flowing through on this day <3
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If you lack in fath, see how you lack in faith. Ask your divine to reveal itself to you; to give you an experience that you can’t deny; an experience that you can carry with you for a lifetime and never doubt again.
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The Five Tibetan Rites is the new coffee! Before I started doing the Sun Salutations, I started my day performing 21 sets of each of the five Tibetan rites.. and if I skipped a day I most *definitely* could feel it! This truly was my Morning ‘Cup-a-Joe’.
“The Tibetan Rites are a collection of 5 yoga postures that became widely known after a man by the name of Peter Kelder wrote a book entitled The Ancient Secret of the Fountain of Youth in which he claimed to have received these exercises from Tibetan monks.
The Five Tibetans activate the primary chakras (primary energy center within the subtle body) and stimulates energy flow through them. When these energy centers are activated, the corresponding nerves, organs and glands are also stimulated.
If that’s too much ‘hocus pocus’ for you, then consider the fact that these exercises tone and strengthen the major muscle groups, contributing to a strong and resilient physique. It’s amazing how quickly you gain strength through doing the Five Tibetans daily. This practice is the *only* thing that saved me when I embarked on Yoga Teaching Training; had I not been doing these daily, I would have never passed the course.
The benefits of doing these rites are incredibly numerous, some of which are the following:
feeling refreshed and energized
minimizing of health issues, especially spine-related issues
feeling an enhanced sense of well-being and harmony
having a very high overall level of energy”
If you’re just beginning, you can start with doing three of each rite, and slowly work your way up to where you can perform 21 of each rite daily. Set a goal for yourself. When I initially started, my goal was to add one of each rite each week. Then I knew I would be doing 21 of each rite after 21 weeks. Much to my surprise, it was easy to add one after three to four days. Soon, I was doing seven.. and then one day I just tried to see if I could do 14 of each rite and I could do it very easily! So I stepped up my game! You will be surprised at how fast you gain strength if you do these daily and consistently!
I have taught these rites to many friends, and they all say they have a noticeable increase in energy-levels throughout the day when they make these rites their daily, morning practice. If you try them and feel a difference, please come back and post your experience so that others can benefit!
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Love to you!
Further Explanation of the Rites and their benefits (1. source of quoted text above):
My day is full of love and light!! It rained all day. Rain is a blessing. A kind man offered me a free ride home on the back of his scooter so I didn’t have to walk in the rain. On the way, it started to rain really hard so we had to pull over and wait under a tree until the rain let up.
Across the street I saw two men fighting.. over trash. That was a sobering experience. To think that trash can be so valuable that it’s worth fighting over. As I watched from the other side of the road, I began to give both men distance Diksha. They were getting physical, slapping and shoving one another, and then one of them picked up a big rock and raised it as if he was going to bash the other guy in the head with it. I turned my head, I couldn’t look.
As I drew down even stronger forces of energy, channeling it toward these two men, I could feel my hands heat up while the energy emanated from them. “Good”, I thought, “Something is making it’s way over there”. While I continued to send energy their way, I prayed for their peace and prosperity; then I prayed for Spirit to break up the fight and resolve it fairly. I urged for the bag to be broken up and divided fairly.
Suddenly, a bigger man from my side of the street started hollering at them, then he crossed the street, stepped in and broke up the fight.
I gave thanks, and about that time, it also stopped raining, so the driver took off. As we passed the three men, the large bag was being opened and one of the me was taking items out of it. Perhaps they were making a fair division? Who knows.
As I climbed the stairs to my apartment, showing gratitude to my divine, I realized… it wasn’t just the man that broke up the fight that Spirit was expressing through… Spirit was expressing through all four of us… Interacting with itself…
It kinda blew my mind a little bit lol.
Was this timing divinely orchestrated so that the energy work and prayer would take place? Or would the man have intervened anyway? Nobody knows, but it sure leaves one to wonder at the magical possibilities of life!
Later, I got notice that a package arrived, then another kind man gave me a ride to the mail place. I was elated to receive a box with my favorite chocolate and an awesome water bottle and baggies. Ziplock baggies!! What a luxury item to have in this country!! Great for keeping the ants out of my chocolate, ha ha ha!!
Here is my apartment for the time being. I live with others. I have my own room and bathroom, but I share the commons area (kitchen, dining room, and living room) with others:
There you have it! That’s where I live! Although I must admit, most places in Mysore are nothing like this. The down side is that it’s right on the busy street and the constant honking and traffic noise can get to you. Also, there’s a cell phone tower on top of the building. Lucky thing I have custom-fitted ear plugs and my invisible super sonic EMF reflector, ha!
Something’s happening. You may not know it yet, but it’s taking the world by storm.. and it’s contagious. If you read this post, you will likely catch it. You’ve been warned. You see, it’s the divine (or call it what you will – Spirit, Creator, God, the Universe.. what ever resonates with you). It’s God’s Love Bug… the divine expressing itself through-out the Universe, in a language we can all understand; in the language of the divine.
The divine talks to us all the time, through various avenues, and one very powerful means of communication is through visual symbols. The language of the divine is Love, so how can the divine express love visually? Through hearts!
Yes. Hearts! Seriously folks, check out these pictures. They are just a very small sampling of the collection I’ve captured, throughout my journey in India, of this phenomenon.
The divine is everywhere, expressing itself through hearts, to show you that you’re not alone, that your divine is with you every second of the day and will always be with you.
The divine expresses itself through love. Through a piece of paper on the floor or ground – or through trash:
Through the rocks:
Through the animals – seriously folks, I can’t make this stuff up lol! There are too many miracles here to deny it. How many perfectly shaped heart rocks have you seen in your life time? How many animals with hearts? Aside from the two pics of me kneeling by the calve, these are all different animals that have crossed my path! Even the calf that looks the same on the second row.. notice one has white legs and the other doesn’t.
It expresses through food; a ‘Good Morning’ message from the divine in your breakfast fruit salad, a treat given to you from a friend, the shape of freshly delivered pizza, or even a left over crumb (Note: These fruit salad pictures were taken on separate occasions):
Through trees and leaves, through the way the grass grows, through the asphalt and other nature bits:
But how do I know it’s the divine? Well, stay tuned for that story. However, I will share this: I was walking down the street discussing this with a friend. Suddenly he stopped in amazement. I asked him what was going on. He said he asked God, “if this is real, then show me a heart”. He then looked down and there was a heart on the sidewalk right by his foot! It looked like an oil stain of some sort, or perhaps something wet on the cement. Later, I went back to take a picture of this heart – and it was gone. True story! Life is full of miracles (if you remain open to them)!! Check out today’s Soulystic Suggestion below and open yourself to God’s miracles today.
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Ask your divine to open your eyes to be able to see the signs He is sending to you. Ask Him to let you know that He is with you at all times, and that you are not alone <3 Marvel at the miracles that unfold next.
If you catch the GLB (God’s Love Bug), please share your photos with me on my Soulystic Living Facebook page! Too many people feel isolated and alone these days, let’s get this message out to the world!!
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Hello beautiful people! Yesterday as I walked to my panchakarma appointment, I found four coins on the ground amongst a bunch of motorcycles. I knew immediately upon picking them up that they were meant for someone else, so I tucked them away in a separate compartment in my wallet; knowing the divine would reveal this person to me later in the day and that I would recognize that person when s/he showed up.
Bear in mind that in some parts of India, people in the streets will often ask for money, but that’s not been a common experience for me in Mysore. Children have asked for American coins or quarters, but they do not generally ask for money.
As I was leaving the treatment place a boy was standing outside the fence. I was in the process of calling a friend when he said hello. I quickly said hi before dialing the last number. The boy patiently stood there during the entire phone conversation, which was odd (this is not typical behavior in my experience). Before I ever hung up the phone, I already knew he was the one to whom I was to give the money.
When I got off the phone I looked at the boy and, with his limited English, he said, “Please. Money.” He didn’t look poor, but it’s really not for me to judge; I knew he was to be the recipient of the coins. I asked him if he speaks English. He gave me a confused look, almost with a brief expression of fear behind it, and remained wordless. I smiled, open my wallet, fetched the coins and gave them to him. His face lit up, he smiled back, then we both went our separate ways.
A beautiful example of the divine working through one person to help another. Who knows what the boy needed the money for. Maybe he was taking it to help his grandmother. Maybe he needed something for school. Maybe he said a prayer and this experience was to deepen his faith, or, maybe the experience was to deepen mine (or yours, through my sharing). Perhaps he simply had a strong desire for a sweet, or something, and he put that out to the Universe and it was returned through me.
Who knows? It’s really not up to me to figure out. I can only speak for my own experience, and for me, it was an honor to allow Spirit to flow through me to another. It literally made my day. I left that encounter with a hop and a skip in my step, in awe of how the divine had orchestrated this entire process to fulfill this boy’s need or desire. I marveled at how perfectly orchestrated everything had to be in order for Spirit to flow through me; from the timing of when I left the house to the timing of when the person got off the motorcycle and dropped the coins, to the precise timing that I was leaving my appointment – even right down to the fact that the divine knew that I would save the coins and give them to the right person instead of keeping them for myself.
The word panchakarma literally means “five actions”, and in panchakarma there are five different procedures used as a therapeutic way of eliminating toxins from the body. I started panchakarma last week. Each day I go to the clinic, check in with the doc, then go for my treatment. At first, I felt like I was in heaven! But then? Shit got real lol.
In week one, I was given internal ‘medicine’ to take daily. Each day I would awaken, take the internal meds, then go to the clinic for my check-in. After check-in, I would receive a head massage and a full body deep-tissue massage, then I would go into the steam box. The steam box is typically a big wooden box that encompasses your body, with a slot for your head to poke through the top. It releases hot steam inside, which opens your pores and assists in the elimination of toxins (see pictures below).
I also got some funky, dukey-lookin’ stuff put on my head, that I had to leave in for two hours. That put a damper in my daily plans lol. Walking home with this mess on my head every day was fun! No. Seriously! The looks I got were priceless!
I loved the beginning of week one! Even though I was on a limited diet, I still had a host of foods to choose from that were quite delicious – including my ‘Health Idli’s’ (if you’re subscribed to my Facebook page you know what these are). The massages were to live for, and I left feeling so relaxed. However, toward the end of the week, everything changed.
During the fourth and fifth day I was really, really tired. I came home after each treatment and fell asleep. Also, on the fifth day, I was very emotional. I went for my check-in and the next thing I know I’m bawling at the doctor’s desk! For those of you who aren’t familiar with detoxing the body, crying is a symptom – it always gets worse before it gets better! The doctor and I talked for about an hour and I cried most of the time. Then I went in for my treatment and cried during the head massage. After that I went home and, yes, cried some more.
The next day I wasn’t supposed to take any internal meds and man I felt a total difference! For that one day I had energy for a change! On this day I also was on a liquid diet, as a preparation for the following day’s ‘purgation’. I drank fresh coconut water most of the day, and had one bowl of soup.
I was excited to start week two, because I knew I would no longer be walking around with dukey-head lol. That meant I could actually go somewhere after treatment and get some things accomplished. Instead of the head massage and treatment, I was going to get a face massage and some nose drops. COOL!
The doc warned me that, after the drops, I would need to spit and clear my nose, so to go to the bathroom after the face massage take care of it. She also warned me to not snort the drops. So the man put the drops in my nose and I had to let it drip towards my brain for a couple minutes. I didn’t fully snort it.. but.. I did inhale a little harder than normal. I figured, I’m paying good money for this cleanse and I want it to be effective, right? What was I thinking?!
After my face massage, I felt fine, so I went straight into the steam box. Suddenly, just after I’m closed into the steam box, my throat starts to burn and I can’t breath without coughing. I expected throat symptoms, no biggy. Next, my eyes start burning. Now I’m confused, because doctor never mentioned anything about eyes burning. “Why are my eyes burning?!”, I wonder. I ask the man if my eyes are supposed to burn. “No”, he says.
Okay, honestly? I may as well have snorted habanero sauce; I’m pretty sure it would have given similar effects. “Holy heck!!”, I think, “What IS that stuff?!” I feel like someone placed a torch behind my eyeballs and they were burning from the inside out, like an inferno is inside my head. Tears were streaming down my face, unprovoked by me. I am now choking on, what seems like fumes in the back of my throat. A steady burning sensation hurled through my nose, and it began to run.. I’m pretty sure it eventually just went completely numb at some point.
Walking home I probably looked like a drunkard on crack whose best friend just died; walking all cock-eyed with my eyes all bloodshot, tears steady streaming down my face. My throat was sore, my nose was still burning, and I’m pretty sure at this point that I no longer have nose hairs. As soon as I got home a roommate asked if I was okay; he thought I was really upset and had been crying. Later, a different roommate asked me if I was sick with a cold or something. A good hour to hour and a half passed before it finally settled down and I’m not going to lie, it sucked.
So much for shopping and sight-seeing after treatment! Let’s hope tomorrow is more gentle lol. There you have it, folks. That’s my adventure for the day and my initial experiences with panchakarma. Okay, okay. It wasn’t THAT bad, of course I’ve exaggerated for sheer entertainment purposes lol. I can’t give an honest review of panchakarma until I’m through the entire treatment, but don’t let this post scare you away from it; I hear that many celebrities swear by it and come to India to have it done annually.
What’s the weirdest or funniest experience you’ve had with a cleanse?
I was walking down the street the other day and this dog came up to me with the most unusual behavior (for an Indian dog). Dogs in India are not overly friendly like dogs in the United States. They are typically left to their own devices for survival, are quite self-reliant, and not usually interested in people.
This dog, however, was different. He came up to me with the biggest grin on his face – like he’d just found his long-lost friend! He was anxious and panting, wagging his tail, going in circles and doing the light-footed happy-doggy-dance. He was also talking to me.
Yes, he was talking to me. He wasn’t talking to me with words like you and I talk, though. He was talking to me with consciousness. Sort of like… communicating to me with thought. He told me he wanted me to do energy work on him and to give him a blessing (a form of energy work where I act as a channel for the divine to flow through me into the recipient – much like what is described here – just with a little different energy). He told me he was diseased and needed help. All the while he is telling me this, he is actively jumping up and down, pawing at my thighs; rolling on the ground; running in circles, etc.
I told him I will gladly grant his wish, but I would please like to have a picture of the heart on his forehead first. He suddenly stopped pawing at me, stopped jumping up and down, and posed for the picture. First he sat, then he laid.
I took his picture, then I brought divine energy down through me and into him. Aware of the people nearby watching me intently, I extended my hands out above his head, and gave him a blessing. As soon as he received the blessing, he thanked me and calmly walked away.
I was honored to allow the divine to express through me this day, but this dog was an expression of the divine for me, just as much as I was a channel of the divine for him. You see, it was a test for me. A test of my courage; of my faith; of my self acceptance and of my willingness to be a testimony for the divine by my actions. I’ve struggled with self-acceptance most of my life. Particularly in the area of my divine gifts. I’ve denied these parts of myself most of my life. So this truly was a test for me.
I was placed in a situation where I could deny my divine gifts, for fear of judgment or I could accept the task and let go of the attachment to what other people think of me. I was quite aware of the people on the street staring at the entire process. It would have been really easy to let my ego destroy this moment; to succumb to fear that people would judge me for being weird or different. Yet, had I taken that route, I wouldn’t be living for my divine. So what’s more important? God placed me in that situation at that precise moment so that I could be a channel for Him. Who am I to say no to this task?
That would kind of be like saying no to my best friend with a 104 degree temperature, calling me for a ride to the emergency room, because I’m afraid people will laugh at my driving on the way – absurd! So why should I let fear get in the way of serving my divine?
Trust me, several times a week a local native stops me and asks me why I am doing what I’m doing. In fact, it happened just today. The conversation usually ends with him walking away, shaking his head. I know I’m different. I know people don’t understand me or my actions.. but I Am That I Am. At times, I just grin and know what I know and remain in my happy little state of bliss at the magical wonderland that I traverse! At other times, my ego gets a grip and it gets me down (but not for long, ha!). I’m learning to accept my gifts, to no longer succumb to the fear, to live for my divine knowing that it’s not my problem that others don’t understand me.
Some people say that dog is man’s best friend. I say man’s best friend is the divine. Without God, we are nothing. Without God, we have nothing. God is what makes life worth living. A lot of people are still figuring this out. How many of you feel lonely? Or have a sense of longing for a life partner? How many times have you gotten that life partner only to have the sense of longing or loneliness return after a few months into the relationship? Maybe you think marriage will solve your problem, so you get married and everything feels great for a while but then the longing returns. Then you convince yourself that this new truck you want if you could just have it, you would truly be happy so you buy it and everything feels great! For a while… until the longing returns again. So then you decide to ‘become someone’ and get a career (after all, you have this nice new truck to pay for, ha ha) so you go to college and get a degree, find a great job and THEN, finally, you feel completely fulfilled… for a while… until the longing returns. So you get a dog… something that can’t talk back to you, or criticize you, a being that will always give you love.. yes! This is right. And everything is great!! For a while… until the longing returns. Again. How long have you been seeking? How many years have you been moving on to the next step, and the next, and the next, trying to fill this void within you? What you are longing for, is a deep, connected relationship with the divine.
Maybe not in the way you’ve been taught… I’m not talking about a forged relationship where you simply believe there is a God because you’re told there is a God and you should have blind faith. No. I’m talking about EXPERIENCING the Divine Presence in your life… where you FEEL the divine’s Presence every single day and you experience the divine’s Presence in all throughout the day. It’s the most beautiful, magical existence! This can be your reality… but it requires effort on your behalf.
Let me ask you this: How long would your best friend (or girlfriend or spouse) be your best friend (or girlfriend or spouse) if you gave him or her the same amount of attention that you give God? How often would your best friend come around if you talked to him/her the same way that you talk to God? Well then… why would you expect any less of God? The divine is the most important relationship in your life, dedicate time to that relationship and bask in the miracles that infiltrate your life as a result!
Let your divine be your best friend. Talk to God! Talk to your divine in everything you say and do. Consult Him like you would consult your best friend in everything you say or do! Your divine is right there with you all the time… you live in Him and He lives in you… but He is just as dependent on you as you are on Him, when it comes to connecting. How can the divine possibly show you He is there, if you’re not talking to the Him? How can the divine show you s/he is active in your life if you don’t have a line of communication established and are listening for a reply?
If you had no eye-sight, and you were sitting across the room from your best friend, how would you know your best friend was in the room unless you spoke to him and listened for a response? It’s the same with God. Talk to God and listen for a response. Open your spiritual ears!
No… dog is not man’s best friend. Man’s best friend is the divine.
Take a moment to talk to God right now. Tell your divine that you want to strengthen your relationship with him/her, and ask your divine to show you how to do this. When you get a response, be sure to show gratitude to your divine; then come back and share your experience!
One day, when my daughter was little, I was driving her to school and she said she felt sick to her tummy. Without telling her what I was doing, I placed my right hand on her belly, then prayed and asked God to use me as His vessel and to flow through me and make her better. All of a sudden she got this look of amazement on her face and turned to me and said, “Thanks mom!”. I asked, “What for?”. She said the sick feeling was gone and she felt better. Call it coincidence if you want, but I know better.
You see, many nights I did this same technique while she was sleeping. She had severe eczema and asthma. At night the itching was quite severe and we had many sleepless nights in our house. On the nights where she was visibly miserable, I would place her in bed with me, and then I would pray and ask God use me as His vessel; to flow through me and give her relief. Then I would place my hand slightly above the affected area, and the itching would stop. Sometimes I would even feel heat come through my hand, but not always. Just because you can’t feel it or see it doesn’t mean it’s not real!
Nobody taught me how to do this. It was my natural instinct. I followed it and it worked. Today, when I do energy work, I usually feel the energy physically come through me. It’s not just me… and it’s not just for ‘chosen ones’. Everybody has this capability. The divine flows through everyone… yes, even you!
What if I had denied those instincts, thinking it was impossible, and never even tried? What if somebody told me I was crazy for thinking such things were possible? Look at all I would have missed out on in life, due to a closed mind. Connecting with God and allowing God to flow through me… that’s the good stuff! That’s what makes life worth living! It’s worth more than all the riches and jewels in the entire world combined! It’s the stuff dreams are made of!
Never let anybody tell you that your reality isn’t real. Trust in your instincts and follow your heart. God is amazing. He works through each and every one of us! All we have to do is ask.
Ask your divine to flow through you today; ask Him to give you visibility of how He wants to flow through you to help others. Then trust in what happens next; it is not your imagination.
Finally, give thanks to your divine for answering your prayer and come back and share your experience here; I can’t wait to hear all about it!
Today, my yoga teacher told me, “You are so brave.”
I wondered, “Am brave? Or just plumb crazy?” You see, in just five short days, I will be on an airplane for a six-month stay in India. What would a small-town Kansan-grown woman be doing in India for six months? Studying yoga, of course!
You see, a couple of years ago I got sick. Really, really sick. Because of this illness, I lost my job of 14 years, and am in the process of losing my home now. There was so much wrong with me it would be shorter and quicker to list all the things that were right lol. At 263 lbs, I was diagnosed with Narcolepsy, Metabolic Syndrome, Hashimoto’s Thyroiditis, Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, Fibromyalgia, memory loss and several others. Additionally, I was having seizure activity, I had multiple nutrient deficiencies, a growth on my thyroid, and two tumors in my right breast that were consistently monitored in case they turned into cancer.
I lost a lot of my long-term memories, and my short-term memory was just awful. When I went somewhere and parked my car, I could not find it when I came back outside. It was so frustrating. Once, I was driving through town (the town I grew up in) and all of a sudden I was lost! I couldn’t tell which way was north and I had no idea where I was or how to get home… yet I’d been at that location thousands of times. I couldn’t even remember phone numbers to call for help! I remember feeling scared and confused.
The effects of these illnesses were bad. It was so bad that, at one point, I was laid up on the living room floor and it literally took every ounce of my energy to get up and cook a meal – and sometimes I went without because I just didn’t have it in me to get up. I seriously thought (and felt) like I was dying.
The day my neurologist diagnosed me with narcolepsy, he told me that yoga would help me. I thought surely he must have bumped his head. How could twisting my body into a pretzel possibly help me to heal? Fast forward a few years, desperate to for full healing, I finally decided to give yoga try. As I searched for a yoga studio, I ran across a page that offered Yoga Teacher Training.
“Heeey-aaay!”, I thought. “If I have to do yoga every day, I may as well make money at it, right?!”
So, without further ado, having never stepped into a yoga studio in my life, I signed up for a five-month course to become a certified yoga instructor. Little did I know what I was getting myself into! My coach didn’t think I was going to make it past the first 48 hours of the class (and neither did I). It never occurred to me that I might need to have the physical strength to do this class, let alone the need for a well-functioning memory (which proved quite the handicap throughout the course) to remember the poses (asanas).
Alas, I did it! I graduated just a few short weeks ago. Thus, I am going to India to deepen my practice, study Ashtanga yoga, and take more teacher training. My hopes and dreams are that I will heal completely in the process, come back and share the art of yoga with our community, become a health and life coach, help others to heal.
At first, my trip was only going to be a month long, but then I realized I could stay over there and live on the economy cheaper than I can live in the United States, and take my practice even deeper. There are several yoga schools that I want to attend, and some teacher training courses I would like to take. Hopefully I can come back and share this practice with our community.
You know, yoga is increasingly being used as a complimentary treatment to many health conditions, to include PTSD, back problems, depression, and anxiety to name a few (see links below). Having suffered with PTSD myself, I hope to someday be able to help others with restorative yoga and workshops. Yoga can be so healing, working on us physically and mentally. In my experience, yoga has facilitated a lot of emotional release as well. I have released more pent-up emotions doing yoga than professional counseling has ever done for me – and it’s much less expensive!
Dr. P. Murali Doraiswamy, professor of Psychiatry & Behavioral Sciences at Duke University, says, “If there was a drug that could mimic the affects of yoga, it would probably be the world’s best-selling drug”. He goes on to say that yoga affects more than 200 different processes in our body and brain. It affects virtually every tissue and every system in our body. Studies have shown that yoga can produce a relaxation response that mimics the best anti-anxiety drugs that we have on the market today. He said, “We feel it should be a national priority to do more studies of yoga.” A NATIONAL Priority! That is a pretty powerful statement!
Yoga therapy is also gaining grounds in hospitals. Yoga U online reports, “As the health benefits of yoga are increasingly recognized, more doctors in the US are utilizing yoga therapy as an adjunct practice to modern medicine. According to the New York Times, yoga is offered as therapy in 93 percent of 755 integrative medical centers across the nation—facilities that offer both traditional medicine and alternative approaches to health under one roof.”
So, am I really brave? Or just plumb crazy? I would say I’m determined. Determined to send all of these illnesses into remission. I could say I want my life back, but the truth of the matter is… I don’t want my life back. No. I want a better life. I deserve that. I want a new life. A life of authenticity, where I am no longer hiding any part of who I am — perceived good or bad. I am that I am, and that is good enough. I could never go back to the life I used to have. Instead, I am becoming my authentic self; who I was designed to be, and that is a beautiful thing.
My doctor’s told me that these illnesses are incurable, leaving the impression that I would them for a lifetime. I say that’s only true if I choose to believe it, and I have no intention of doing that. I have been fighting for my health to return to it’s natural state since the day I was diagnosed, refusing to believe that was my reality for the rest of my life. With God’s grace, my health will exceed all of my expectations.
If you suffer from chronic illness or psychological conditions, never let them tell you what you can’t do. I hope this inspirational video will fill your heart and spirit the way it did mine (I still haven’t figured out how to insert a video yet):
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I’m a perfectionist. I want everything to be perfect before I ‘unleash’ it to the world. I’ve realized, if I wait for everything to be perfect, it rarely gets ‘unleashed’.
There’s something inside of me desiring to be expressed… that little piece of God; it’s in all of us, waiting to reveal itself to the world. It’s called by many names.. Spirit, Soul, Christ, Atman, Christ Consciousness, Antaryamin, Indwelling Presence, Higher Self, Indwelling Power, Inner Essence, etc. What ever you call it, it’s divine.. and my divine desperately wants to be expressed. It’s why I am here.
I’ve decided that it’s more important to allow the expression of this divinity within me, than it is to make sure everything is perfect on this site before I start. So.. here is my first post, bare bones, with all it’s glorious imperfections. It’s not much.. but it’s a start and you know what? That’s accomplishing more than the guy just sitting on the couch doing nothing.
What areas of life have you been putting off, waiting for everything to be perfect? How are you preventing your authentic self from shining through? Maybe you’ve put off exercise, because you don’t have time for an hour long walk, but what if you just walked for five minutes? So what? It’s only five minutes… but that’s still doing more than the guy sitting on the couch.
What would become available to you, if you were to just get started?