"I was emotionally messed up and, truth is, I hated myself...."I was nominated by a few people on Facebook to share some pictures of me that make me feel beautiful. I'm posting them here, because I want to also share why they make me feel beautiful, in hopes of inspiring others: 1. I was very, very sick... and also very wounded inside. I was emotionally messed up and, truth is, I hated myself. I had so many (more…)
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God brings people into our lives for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. Through every relationship, we are being taught, molded and formed into who God has designed us to be. Whose to say these losses aren't necessary in order to mold and form us into the person our Special One is going to recognize?
If we learned something - anything - from a lost relationship, then it wasn't all for naught. Sometimes, that 'reason', or lesson, is for us to find our own self worth and value; to treat ourself with respect and honor, by walking away from those that treat us wrong. If you’re too busy wasting time on someone that is treating you wrong, you won’t ever be available for the One that will treat you right!
Maybe you’re not losing love. Maybe you are gaining new beginnings! Trust that the Universe has your right where you are supposed to be; not a second sooner or later. Someday, you’re going to look back on this time and be grateful for this loss (and gain).
Here’s a T-shirt I saw in the mall in Chennai, Tamil Nadu, India:
"SINGLE. God is looking at you right now saying, “I’m saving this one for someone special”
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Blessings and love to you!
Today, I’m grateful that I can find the silver lining in this cloud, even though I feel so down in the dumps right now… after three months of being away, I returned to my (shared) apartment in Karnataka only to find some my kitchen belongs (which are clearly marked with my name) either gone, dipped into, or completely used up. Depressing.
So.. as I sit here feeling grouchy and frustrated at the lack of morals in this world; with my head aching, trying to tune out the sound of the workers demolishing the building next door and the constant onslaught of vehicles honking (really, there is not even a two-second moment of silence on this street corner, except maybe between 2AM-5AM), a Force inside gently nudges me to reach deep and find something, anything(!) for which to be grateful.
"Can’t I just bask in my grouchiness?”, I asked this Force.
The response I got was that no matter how bad we think we’ve got it, there is always someone worse than us. Suddenly, a picture flashed in my mind of the deformed man on the beach in Kerala, whose body was stuck in a sort of permanent squatting position. Yet he still got up every single day, got dressed, and was out on that beach making a living. He didn’t get the choice to walk. He had to hobble, much like a gorilla, using his arms as legs. And even though he has long legs, he will never get his height measured in any taller than the height of his squat - about two and a half to three feet. Suddenly, a surge of gratitude pulsed through me and I began to feel grateful that I have legs and they work and I can stretch them out and run and walk and skip.
“Thank you”, I told the Force, “Do it again! Show me another."
Soon, another image flashed in my mind, of the man that would come to our table each day at the beach in Kerala, emaciated, wrinkled and dressed in rags. This man didn’t speak English but still, he spoke my language. He spoke with his eyes. He spoke with his heart. He never said the word, “Please”, but his eyes said everything I needed to ‘hear' (I’m literally swallowing back tears as I type this right now). And each day, I would pull ten or twenty rupees out of my pocket and place it gently in his hand. He also never spoke the word, “Thank you”, but every day after I gave him the money, he would squeeze it gently, still looking me in the eyes with gratitude, tap his hand to his heart, then to his forehead, and smile. Although half his teeth were missing, it’s one of the most beautiful smiles I’ve ever seen. This one scene alone provided so much to be grateful for, I could spend a whole day writing about it.
Through these gifts I’ve been shown, I was able to step back into the Present Moment and find the silver lining in this cloud. Today, I am grateful for the morals and values and standards that my parents instilled in me. I’m so grateful for the parents I was blessed with in this lifetime. I’m grateful that, through my upbringing and God’s Grace, I have the gift of being sensitive to the needs of others. I’m grateful that, although I’m sleeping with a bandana over my face so as not to inhale the vehicle fumes and demolition dust (without the windows open it would likely be unbearably hot in my apartment), I do have a roof over my head and food on the table - and not just any food - but good, wholesome vegetables and fruits. I’m grateful that I am well enough now to cook that food, for I can remember a time when I was so sick that I didn’t have the strength and energy to cook a meal, let alone eat it. And I am incredibly grateful for the man in my life who, despite my grouchiness, has graciously shown me more patience than I may deserve at times. He is one of the strongest men I know, mentally and emotionally. I don’t think God could’ve picked a better man for me. Truly.
If you’re ever stuck where you can’t think of anything to be grateful for, you could always close your eyes, take a few steady, deep breaths; ask your divine to connect with you or come into your heart and, once you feel a sense of peace or stillness come over you, ask your divine to show you what you have to be grateful for in this moment.
So? What about you? What are you grateful for today?
Love and Blessings to you!
- To help the vegetables to brown, you can toss and cover evenly with oil.
- Add any type of flavoring you would like: Salt, Pepper, Chopped garlic, Rosemary, Chiles, Red pepper flakes
- Spread veggies evenly in a roasting pan so as not to touch on the sides.
- Once browned, turn with spatula to brown other side.
- Once browned again, cover with foil until tender.
- Remove to a dish and pour sauce over them.
Let me ask you this: How long would your best friend (or girlfriend or spouse) be your best friend (or girlfriend or spouse) if you gave him or her the same amount of attention that you give God? How often would your best friend come around if you talked to him/her the same way that you talk to God? Well then... why would you expect any less of God? The divine is the most important relationship in your life, dedicate time to that relationship and bask in the miracles that infiltrate your life as a result!Let your divine be your best friend. Talk to God! Talk to your divine in everything you say and do. Consult Him like you would consult your best friend in everything you say or do! Your divine is right there with you all the time... you live in Him and He lives in you... but He is just as dependent on you as you are on Him, when it comes to connecting. How can the divine possibly show you He is there, if you're not talking to the Him? How can the divine show you s/he is active in your life if you don't have a line of communication established and are listening for a reply? If you had no eye-sight, and you were sitting across the room from your best friend, how would you know your best friend was in the room unless you spoke to him and listened for a response? It's the same with God. Talk to God and listen for a response. Open your spiritual ears! No... dog is not man's best friend. Man's best friend is the divine. Take a moment to talk to God right now. Tell your divine that you want to strengthen your relationship with him/her, and ask your divine to show you how to do this. When you get a response, be sure to show gratitude to your divine; then come back and share your experience! Love to you <3! Jodi
This friend sent his driver and is also setting me up with a room on the cheap. Nice!! Then my phone ran out of Internet. There's no place to charge it where I'm at & I can't charge it on my own because I'm not a local. I contacted a man in Mahabalipuram that I'd met four weeks ago. He was very kind and showed me the town and didn't ask for one penny. He also gave me some pointers on dealing with the locals. He told me to never show my money and don't carry much on me. He said if I see something I want then I can go back & get cash. He gave me an amount to counter offer anytime someone tries to sell me something. He told me I paid too much for a pamphlet at a tourist attraction. He was there but he said he couldn't tell me in front if them or they would make trouble for him later. He also walked me down to the post office to get prices and he shipped my belongings to me in the USA so I don't have to bother traveling with them. A very kind, honest man. Anyway, I still had his business card, so I phoned him and asked if he still has my credit card info. He said no, but he would charge it to his credit card and I can wire him money when I get to Mysore. How cool is that?! I don't even know this guy!! It's the divine flowing through him! I love the way my divine provides for me before I even realize I need it! How perfectly everything had to align for me to meet this very man who is helping me along my journey now <3 Life is so magical!! Thank you, Spirit, for all the grace you give me <3 <3 <3. God ROCKS!! I am totally being carried through and provided for every single moment of every single day. What more could anyone ever ask for? Honestly? So, my apartment! The friend of a friend put us up in a really nice place with very reasonable prices. Its a lodge, but its really more like an apartment! Here is the bedroom:
The living room:
And the kitchen:
When I looked out the back door, I was greeted with this great big smiley face. See it?!
The friend that connected me to the helper in Thirruvanamalai? I just met him in November of last year. Who would've thunk he'd be helping me on my trip to India? I am so incredibly grateful for these people's help. The man even showed us three different places in different price ranges so we could choose. He made sure we were close to the ashram and had A/C of we wanted it. We opted to go without; it's less expensive. Suggestion: Pray and ask your divine to show you how He is aligning you with the right people to bring about miracles in your life daily. Blessings and Love, Jodi Sources: (1) A guide to Giripradakshina